Master Key Experience Week 5

Making sense of it…

In Week 4, the overall message I was receiving from the Universe was “change.”

But It clearly didn’t feel I had gotten the message yet. And It was particularly blunt in its last message to me.

My youngest daughter (18) received news Tuesday that her good friend (also 18) was killed over the weekend. The only consolation is there was no suffering.

It’s been a heartrending week, helpless to soften the anguish and unable to protect her from the absolute senselessness of the accident.

And a painfully poignant reminder that in an instant, life can flip your world upside down.

It’s made our Week 5 assignment of the Press Release difficult – I’m trying to imagine a future point in time in my life on one side, what I want.

But I only truly have here… Now.

I’m chasing clarity, but like anything we chase, it’s running away. I lose sight of it as my mind begins to dwell on sadness, but fortunately I catch another glimpse and can get back to the task at hand.

We’re all undergoing a transformation. Before MKE, it was way too easy to dream of the wonderful things I want in a relaxed manner.

But there was never enough urgency in the here and now to DO something to bring it about.

This message is too raw to dismiss. DO IT NOW!

Universe, I hear you.

Subby, hear my conscious cries and stoke those flames of action within me. Grow my dreams to include others, to make a difference in people’s lives, to serve.

Master Key Experience Week 4

Whoa! Whoa!

Week 4 has been a real rollercoaster ride…

After the webinar Sunday night, all I could feel was overwhelm, on the verge of panic. The necessity to give of myself first brought up some very old wounds and defenses.

I haven’t always been a recluse. Used to be I loved going out with friends and having a good time. I was in rock bands, sang and played in front of hundreds of people, could get along with just about anyone.

But over the years, the letdowns in life that happen to most of us hit me particularly hard.

I took many of them personally, and began to distance myself from people, to numb the feelings. Frankly, it was selfishness on my part, but that’s what years of pursuit can do to you (when the pursuit yields nothing but disappointment).

Now the “I” of me is directing my mind and body to do things it’s resisted for so long, and there’s that internal fight between old and renewed.

By Tuesday there was physical manifestation of these feelings, almost like a barrier across my upper torso, trying to keep my heart from breaking free of despair. Perhaps mourning the loss of the old me, the old comfortable shoes that no longer serve, and yet, it was my old comfort for so long.

This sucks, since I’ve been near the point of sobbing almost daily, feeling chained in place, but straining break free… Wanting the fever to break so I can start living the life I’m meant to live, but also wanting to nestle down into the safety and comfort of my hidey-hole. This ambivalence is maddening!

Wednesday morning didn’t really provide any relief, as the old blueprint reared its ugly head in defiance: how dare you try to remove me?! But old habits can only be removed by replacing with new habits, so I’ll keep being like the old Winter Warlock and “Put one foot in front of the other…”

MK 4.12 has been a real kick in the gut! I’ve fallen victim to shiny object syndrome so often, not because I was giving up on something but because I allowed myself to get distracted. I’m incredibly stubborn with some things, and annoyingly flippant about others. So when Haanel says don’t start it if you don’t intend to see it through, whoa!

Then the “Yeah, buts…” start.

Except no. The old programming has NOT gotten me anywhere close to where I want to be, so I’ll not so politely decline.

As Wednesday came to an end, there was a recurring message that kept popping up:

CHANGE!

Coincidence? I think not. Subby picking up the signal?

I read a couple different blog posts discussing change. What struck me was that we typically look at change as something we NEED to do, or that occurs after some major event in our lives. But if you think about it, change is happening every second of the day, all around us.

I kept hearing the John Waite song “Change” in my head. Not that the lyrics are particularly relevant here, except that maybe “what’s in your heart can never change.”

If you look at that line as your true heart, the “I” behind it all, then yes, it doesn’t change, because it doesn’t need to. It’s already good, if we would just listen to it! We have to give up our stubborn need to satisfy the selfishness born out of the noise created by the world without.

Then I saw something my guide Nancy O. posted in Marco Polo: a quote stating, “whatever you are not changing, you are choosing.” Followed up Thursday morning by an enewsletter quoting Rush’s song “Freewill”: “If you choose not to decide, you still have made a choice.”

Hmm, this change IS a choice, and since “going with the flow” hasn’t really worked out for me, who am I to resist? Change those habits (replace bad for good per Og), and manifest the life you want? Or don’t change, and continue living with the pain…

Action equals intent.

By Friday, the funk was gone and it’s readily apparent to me that change is occurring. Certain things have been falling into place.

Rather than letting change just happen (as it will always do, with or without our influence), my choice to change, and the repetition system Mark and Davene (Guides, Staff) have brought to us, is bearing fruit.

There’s a difference I notice… I can’t really put my finger on it yet, but like the “secrets” in MKE, I’m positive it will be revealed soon!

I finally have the eyes to see them, and I’m getting excited!

Final thought: Change is required, but it’s not FROM who you are, but to get back TO who you are. Leaving the world without behind to get back to the world within.

Master Key Experience Week 3

The head bone’s connected to the neck bone…

Photo by Iván Rivero from Pexels

This week’s lesson has been profoundly enlightening.

The readings continue to demand very focused attention, so much that I can almost feel my brain getting full. Well, stretching, expanding…

I find I need to read some passages two to three times (and sometimes four) to comprehend the texts.

And then upon reading them the following day, it’s like I’m viewing something new.

This to me is like studying music theory. As I learn about crafting sound that touches emotions, more mysteries appear that need to be studied and understood.

It’s no wonder we still haven’t reached a ceiling for the creation of new music (or human achievement). There’s infinite possibilities in combinations of sounds, timbres, rhythms, melodies and harmonies.

Hmm, I’ve also observed that I need to be careful, or I may start writing like Haanel!

I see evidence in my notes…

For example: “My creative thought sets in motion the appropriation of the substance necessary to make it a physical reality.”

Really?! You know there’s an easier way to say that!

The brain is such an amazing and mysterious organ (and maybe a little twisted at times?).

Connections

So this physical connection between the brain and the solar plexus, and consequently, the conscious and subconscious described in MK 3.1 through 3.5 has me in awe. The connection kinda reminds me of that folk tune “Dem Bones.” You know the one…

… Back bone connected to the shoulder bone,
Shoulder bone connected to the neck bone,
Neck bone connected to the head bone…

        "Dem Bones”  by Johnson, James Weldon and J. Rosamond

Brain, connected to spinal cord, connected to vagus nerve, connected to Solar Plexus, connected to the rest of the body…

A thought, transferred from conscious to subconscious using this physical route and then becoming translated to a physical action or reality…

Having this visual description of the transfer of thought to action is so beneficial. It now makes much more sense to me how the brain makes the conversion.

And it stands to reason that the conscious thought and demand on the subconscious should in turn create movement towards building whatever life we choose for ourselves.

But then that wall built on sand…

FEAR.

Living in Florida has given me real examples of what happens to things built on sand!

So in the case of fear, that sand foundation is a good thing.

Three weeks into MKE, I’m still a toddler, and the 54 years of programming are gonna take a little longer to debug… Its grip is strong, but getting weaker.

The idea that my subconscious is part of a Universal whole is still a little uncomfortable for me, because I’ve felt alone for so long, but the evidence is too compelling to dismiss.

I let my guard down and suspend the doubt.

I’m not sure why the old programming continues to fight. Is it an ego thing, like “Hey, I’ve kept you going for this long, why are you fighting me?” Or just habit, hmm?

I guess it’s like Og says… the only way to get rid of old habits that don’t serve us is to replace them with new habits. Press on…

More gold is shining through, in fact I had a minor breakthrough.

“… I begin to awake, each morning, with a vitality I have never known before.”

I had become accustomed to waking up sore, with kinks throughout, and groggy, normally needing 20 ounces of water, a full body stretching session, and half a pot of coffee to begin feeling human.

But on Friday, despite getting to bed later than usual, I woke up feeling really good. In fact, I had woken up earlier at 03:30 thinking it was time to get up.

Onward…

I’m extremely glad Haanel not only tells us why this stuff works, but also how.

All I have to do is concentrate on what I want and the subconscious goes to work to bring it into existence.

I don’t have to know how it’s going to happen, only that the pieces will present themselves and I just need to act on them.

While I’ve heard all this before from many different sources (I’ve been searching a long time), there’s a different depth and authenticity with the MKE Team.

In my opinion, Mark and Davene, Guides and Staff, your guidance and commitment – and demand on us – is THE game changer.

The missing link between MKE and other teachers?

Accountability.

Thank you!

Master Key Experience Week 2

Looking for gold…

Photo by Vladislav Nikonov on Unsplash

Does anyone have a jackhammer I can borrow?

This concrete shell that I’ve been trapped inside for so long seems dang-near impenetrable!

But I’m starting to notice some stress fractures.

No jackhammer? Fine, I’ll take a hammer and chisel if I have to… Heck, a spoon if that’s all you’ve got to offer!

As I work through Week 2, I’m recognizing just how deep-set the old blueprint is.

#16 in this week’s lesson really jumped out at me. It’s a poignant reminder of the years I’ve allowed my conscious mind to abuse my subconscious – which has only returned what it was told to do.

Subby has only shaped my life to exactly what my conscious mind allowed through. It didn’t judge. It just accepted unconditionally what it was fed and manifested the results.

To the subconscious, whatever is allowed through by the conscious IS truth, and that’s what Subby works with.

Awareness is recognition that there’s a problem, and admitting THAT is a start in the right direction… 🙂

The new routine has been a bit overwhelming, but manageable. The pattern interrupt gives me less time to engage in unproductive behavior; this was sorely needed.

Since Subby has been unfamiliar with these patterns for so long, he’s resisting – fighting back with a vengeance.

But there is improvement. 

Patterns and habits that held me captive for a long time are losing their grip. I can feel it. I don’t need them.

It’s not perfect. But I’m slipping up less.

The new blueprint is giving me hope that real change is possible, and I’m seeing little glints of gold peeking through…

Master Key Experience Week 1

The first step is the hardest…

“We must all suffer from one of two pains: the pain of discipline or the pain of regret. The difference is discipline weighs ounces while regret weighs tons.”

— Jim Rohn.

I read that quote by Jim Rohn for the first time on Monday morning.

And I was suddenly hit with the awareness of the enormous weight of regret on my shoulders. It reduced me to tears as I realized I am in the exact place I promised myself I would never visit.

Amazing how the teacher appears when the student is ready…

This is Week 1 of the Master Key Experience, a journey I have committed to see through. And already, from the start of the program on Sunday, September 29, 2019, it is kicking my ass!

But I’ve been bogged down for so long in habits and routines that have not been serving me that starting something new just seems like it’s piling on another task.

And because my existing “existence” has me feeling overwhelmed and stuck, the anxiety of adding yet another routine put me in near panic mode.

But enough about me… Let’s talk about me.

I persist.

Because I know there is truth in the Master Key.

I know the secret is in there… intuitively. But I haven’t been strong enough (disciplined) on my own to find it.

I’m no stranger to Hill, and Stone, and Mandino. Heck, I was on Scroll IX when I was introduced to the MKE. I’ve already been reading the Scrolls since January.

But they weren’t sinking in and making any difference. And truth be told, I was just going through the motions at this point.

Obviously something was missing.

I’ve read Think and Grow Rich. The Master-Key to Riches. The Bible. Countless others…

But reading is not enough. Studying and internalizing is what it takes to start influencing my direction in life.

And we are NOT taught how to study!

That’s why I pushed through my fear and anxiety and applied for MKE.  It felt like the shift I need to break out of the daily patterns that have been destroying my life, one bad habit at a time.

Could this be the equivalent of a 12-Step Program to conquer my addiction to mediocrity and transform to the SUCCESS I’ve stubbornly dreamed of my entire life?

Thank you Mark, Davene, Staff, and Guides. You are giving hope to at least one soul that was on the verge of losing hope.

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